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"There's a magical quality to true love, i think. it's not without cost or pain and agony. loves comes with sacrifice. you have to love the flaws in the person more than you love the good qualities, and if you can live with the flaws, then you can have true love." - Patrick Dempsey


i'm complicating my twisted mind, seems like everything is such a waste of time.
i think this is what you call a wipe out. i crashed and i'm still trapped in love's merciless barricade.
is what i am feeling all right? maybe it is. maybe i'm beginning to realize that with each sentence you said, you have already began tearing down my defenses.
the kind i set up so high and strong to prevent from hurting again, yet time and time again i gave in to your smile. she drained the life out of me, she's to die for.
and she's so damn fine.

yet you gave everything up all when things are difficult, and when things are easy, well there's nothing wrong with easy in the first place.
i fought hard to keep us alive, i fought hard to change. i fought hard to make you happy. and basically i fought. i fought for the one i cherish, the one i care about. the one i love.
just so you know, i fought for you. i fought to win you over him.
and for a second i thought i did. just to know that half of the time, i was used to get over him.

but this isn't about him, he don't have that kind of privilege for me to blog about.
this is about what happened. i truly loved you.
but right now there's nothing more i can say, is there?
there's so many boys out there after you, and you love the attention don't you?
i'm trying everything to keep my hands off you, so please give me anything to do that because i want you more than anyone of them do. i really do.
and when i thought i've learned to handle it, i got lost in your small, adorable eyes again.

this post is not a i hate you post.
it's more like a "jeremy needs to let out post".
so there.

jaslyn, thanks. you helped to keep me sane these few days
rachel, i'm glad my bitching bitch is back
matt, your killswitch engage dvd really helps!
sihong! haha thanks for talking to me in the wee hours
lucas, prata prata prata prata
yk, your amazing text msges that make so much sense!
mum, you saved me once again.

i love you all. thanks guys.


The Way We Talk - The Maine