my life is on a standstill right now. how should i put it across?
life is NS really break or make someone's spirit.
ahh fuck that shit.

anyways i really have no idea why am i keep this blog. i guess it's a good channel for release. release what i might add? hmmm, well nothing is constant in my life. there's no stability, dont give me that crap that change is the only constant. because when you haven even gotten used to that change, another one comes running in. so there's no end to it am i right to say? you know, what i'm trying to say is that no one will ever be content with what they have even though they are by far fucking lucky.
fuck that too.

so i heard As I Lay Dying is coming. that is another good opportunity for me to release some much controlled angry inside me. i love hitting those stupid scene kids.
man, i want to be spaceman and moonwalk on the moon. and i wanna meet Juliet Simms badly. bahh.

and this is a shout out to everyone i miss quite terribly.
jaslyn teo ah lian.
mable the salad girl.
lucas the kids central host.
therese heng ah heng!
the ava guys. shen i know you are leaving soon, so hang out please.
aaron low how low can you go.

sigh. okie lah, enough.


sometimes you got to get right to the edge of death in order to be saved.